||[Dec. 8th, 2004|07:37 pm]
|||||my favorite-the suburbs are killing me||]|
so this morning i had the maryhaven interview. it went relatively well, i'm going to another interview on monday at the house in medford. everyone seems so worried and against me getting this job. i'm not 100% sure i want it either. i wish applying to jobs was like applying to colleges, and you could apply to a bunch of places and then choose which was best for you. and i wish they had like job open houses. but since they don't, and i want a job where i can help people one on one, this seems like a good job for me. if i don't get it i want to look more into homeless shelters and such. i hate retail and never want to work in it again. i want a job that feels real, that i feel good about doing. if do get hired then i have to go to a week long orientation which interferes with my winter class, but i might just drop my winter class. it's probably better that way for my own sanity. i need to hang out with everyone over break. i need to go ice skating in the city and get tofu buffalo wings. that's all i want to do right now.
anyway after that i went to the library to look for the romance of tristan which they didn't have, i just may be screwed for this paper. so since i was there i took out cds, kiss me kiss me kiss me by the cure, the smiths self titled, the happiest days of our lives by my favorite, music from the gilmore girls and the pieces of april soundtrack. the pieces of april soundtrack is so amazing, it's all the magnetic fields, the 6ths and stephen merritt. i love his voice, if maple syrup could sing it would sound like stephen merritt. the songwriting is beautiful too, as is the film itself. the gilmore girls one isn't as good as i thought it would be, but it's alright. i used to love gilmore girls (shut up), and i probably still would if i watched it. jackson, if you're reading this, i guess i was wrong when i said we went to the same library because mine (longwood) didn't have from a basement on a hill :(
what's the word for people who are mirror images of each other, like opposites, and when they meet one of them has to kill the other? gobblegangers? dobblegangers?
tonight i must write a paper about humans destroying the environment. coincidentally the people across the street from me decided they no longer want any trees on their property and are in the middle of tearing them all down. what the fuck is wrong with people, i hate long island. i also saw this beautiful giant herring fly out from the swampy area behind the library and into the concrete paradise that is the walmart parking lot and it was just so wrong. i really hate humans sometimes.
i'm getting so excited for the polar bear swim on new years. so excited. someone needs to tape it for us.
i like drawing with charcoal. it's soothing, like playing with play-doh. i'm going to draw now actually.
p.s. i really have no concept of time, and that's probably my biggest problem in life. well not that itself but the problems it causes, the way i'm always late and not concerned with the clock. or maybe it's just because i'm a lazy bastard. i also have no set sleeping schedule, no matter how hard i try. i hate it.